In the summer of 1998 I had an extremely strong experience that at the time convinced me of being some kind of a religious revelation, where I recieved a mission of becoming the 'messenger' of something that would contribute to some changes on the planet. That same day I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital for the first time, being psychotic due to smoking cannabis, according to the phychiatrist. Today, over 20 years later I can give the explanation that I triggered what I refer to as a ' chain-reactive hyper-reflection ' as a result of a experiment within 'systematic thinking' and 'automatic thought processing'. Whatever the truth may be concerning what actually happened that day (one thing doesn't exclude the other), it has had a profound impact on me, and my life since.